8.3.10

haha ... its been a long long long time since i am able to spend weekend with baby ... although not like last time where we go out sat late late till sunday morning those type, but as long as baby is just beside me, i am really happy ... even doing nth ... just bus or mrt ... haha ... is this a dream ? if it is i really hope i wont wake up and let me die in this dream ... haha ...

nowadays dont really like to drive ... cus take public transport then can really hold baby close ... listen to every single words she wants to say and letting her to sleep on my shoulder ... haha ... drive only when its late at night +++ bah .... where transport maybe no longer there ... haha ...

but...............
this morning went to pass her the ring ... she only say, u really bring over ? why u bring over ? u give me for what ? ... haha ... although i know the ring will never appear on her hand ... but its just that ... i still hope mah ... haha ... although its llike 0.0000000001% ? or even lesser or even wont appear at all ... wahaha ...

but i still feel i rather i leave it with her ... i do not know what she will be doing with it ... but ... haha ... haha ...

then mj-ing with baby's sista ... although lose $$$ almost everytime ... but its ok ... cus i really feel its the company that matters ... as long as we enjoy its ok ... some more go to rene house and eat mah ... haha ...

then baby ask me to later go back with her to collect back the ring .... haha ... inside me really ... haha ... but ever since after sat, i already told myself that no matter what happens, have to smile, joke and laugh .... cus its the only way to make baby happy tgt .... if moody or sad will only bring down baby's mood together also ... haha ... so i just anything loh ... haha ... its the couple ring though ... as for the engagement ring ... haha ... in save box for the time being bah ...

then send baby home ... on the way home, mr.bernard call ... haha ... i know i am in no position to say anything or do anything ... but when i know that my heart sank ... haha ... i dont know why .... it just happen .... everytime he call .... i dont know why ... maybe because everytime he call, its time baby modd will turn bad or sad and most of the time she had to left bah ... maybe its like that ... so i just ... haha ... i dont know ...

i know .... although baby say she dont care and stuff like dat ... haha ... but does she really dont care and everything ? haha ... its up to you to guess la huh ... haha ...i have no comments and i cant say anything ....

in front of baby, i wont say anything about mr.bernard ... cus its still her who will make the decision and its still herself to see properly ... so i rather wont say anything about mr.bernard ... i know deep in her, she still giving mr.bernard a tiny little chance but its just that he do not know how to make use of it ... thats how i felt .... although break but baby still giving him chances bah ... haha ...

this is something i wants to post but will eventually create trouble for baby .... so ... haha ... here it is instead ....

the best week ever ... every minutes spend together ... the memories is just worth the smile on our face 29133 days later ...
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