14.5.07

ok ... just got back from sch .... finished sch early today , tutorial cancel ... went to club to slack a while b4 train home with james .... saw kaiwei, adam while waiting for train .... reli feeling lifeless and meaningless today ....

was feeling like what the fuc* has happen to mi .... i dunno .... just feel whats the point of doing everything ???

go to sch for the sake of studying ???
study for the sake of studying ?
laugh for the sake of laughing ?

i just dunno .... feel that everything is getting so fake .....

wanted to study ... but cant find anyone to study with ... thought of studying alone at wdls regional library but its so pack with ppl .... gave up .... come home slack .... wanted to watch "NEXT" by myself ... but its not up today ???
anyone knows why ???

haiz ... i dunno what happen ... i reli dunno .... many things are to be done but i only have myself to deal with every little single problems ... and these problems just keep on coming ....

anyone knows how to end everything once and for all ?
haha ... i guess no one has the ans except for GO AND DIE !!!

many things has changed ever since dont know when ... nth good has happen either ....

haha .... i dont know .. doubt will be studying tonight ... will just lie down on bed looking at the ceiling and day dream ....

wanted to private my blog but i dunno who's viewing and who's not .... forget it ....

reli regreted some of my stupid and idiotic actions .... is'nt close close frenz are better !!!??? what the fucking hell am i thinking ??? causing ppl to drift away from mi ??? so close at first ... haiz .... i rather i had not do anything but to stay as the way we are at first .... is'nt it better ??? .... its hard to accept but its true .... what to do ..... haiz ... i dunno ... reli reli dunno ....

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well ... i guess ... i got no help or lifelines to go to anymore ....
i am here at 6:29 PM